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01:38 am: Am I Really Happy In This Relationship?
So the otha day im at my bfz house and he says 2 me "ima take you out this weekend" bcz he neva does! All we eva do is lay in bed and do a bunch of nuthn and wen we do go out its always 2 da movies and i cant rememba the last tym we even went there. So its now saturday and i passed by the restaraunt 4 a lil while 2 lend a helpin hand 4 .2 secs but it dont matter bcz at this point hes still at work anyways so wen he does get outta work at 4 im doin nuthn so i decide 2 go 2 my sistas house and check on her bcz shes sick and he keeps blowin up my fone 4 no reason askin me wen im leavin and all this shit so i leave my sistaz crib at 840 and get 2 his at 9...ok so wen i went in his house im lyk watchu doin? He says nuthn...im lyk ok? Thinkin 2 myself i thought we was goin out but n e ways i dont say n e thing i jus sit there and watchu tv...then his sis calls him on da fone a lil while later and y r these niggaz goin 2 da club? I was sooooo pissed...i jus got outta bed got dressed and told him 2 walk me out then he wanna ask me y aint i stayin? WTF??? Sometymz i tolerate him leavin me at his crib i jus stay there alone and wait 4 him 2 come back but now im fuckin aggrevated and i've had enuff im NOT his wife theres NO ring on my finga so y da fuck should i stay at ur house alone and wait 4 u 2 come back from the club wen u told me WE were goin out? NO!!!!!!!!! There r no words 2 explain how this made me feel...i cried all the way from his house 2 myn on the way back...it jus makes me wonder sumtymz...is this really wat i want? Y am i in anotha relationship? Am i not learning or do i need 2 keep making the same mistakes? A relationship is supposed to be 50/50 but it feels more lyk 70/30 bcz he does so stuff 4 me but there all lil stupid stuff that dont really matter lyk rubbin my back....I HAVE 2 ASK! I do everything 4 him he dont even have 2 ask i jus do it but i think i know where this is going...ima havta start lookin out 4 me! And 4 the record i guess my uncle was ryt...dont fall for the one u love, fall 4 da 1 who loves u, i neva undastood dat b4 but now its mad clear. Im off this 2 go cry in my pillows ~1~